Just me, and the stuff that goes on in this pretty little head of mine.

This is the song I chose for this term’s showcase. Since the theme is “love”, I’ve decided to go with self-love instead of the usual lovey dovey songs.

Everyone has something they feel insecure about. Everyone. Even the most confident of people. It’s how well they mask their insecurities or fear. Or what they do to try and overcome it. And that’s what we all should remember. That we are imperfectly perfect, because we are our own person and everyone is different.

Someone once told me that I’m narcissistic, egotistical and loud because I’m insecure and am trying to cover it up. She’s partly right. There are some parts of me I do not like, but that’s not why I am narcissistic, egotistical and loud. I’m like that because it is me and that’s just how I am. But this is not the main point in today’s entry.

Insecurities. Imperfections. Everyone has them. I’ve come to terms with the parts about me I do not like and am changing what I can while accepting what I can’t change. I wasn’t always like that. In fact, I used to be the quiet girl who goes home straight after school and has very little friends. I could go through an entire school day without speaking a word (y’all can gasp in disbelief now). I didn’t like that I thought and felt differently from my peers. I didn’t like that I looked different. I didn’t like what people thought about me.

Then I grew up. I figured that I should be living MY life, not what others think it should be. And I met friends who didn’t give a shit and liked me for me. People who could see past the layers and masks I put on. I slowly tore down those layers, learnt not to care about what people thought, and gained more self confidence. I think this was the beginning of my narcissism. LOL.

Then I started making mistakes and decisions that till this day I still regret some of them. I fucked up many things, including relationships with friends and family. It’s all part of growing up. And thankfully, most of them are still by my side today.

So this song serves as a reminder of who I was and who I am now. It’s also to inspire people to start loving themselves more. It’s not that hard to, really.